“Stop honey, wait a minute!” I yell at my 4-year-old, but she’s barreling forward, through the parking lot and toward the church building. She knows there’s people in there that she wants to greet and she’s intent on getting to those people, fast. She’s oblivious to my calls for her to slow down.
I’m frantic for her to take my hand so I can guide her safely to the door of the church. But she doesn’t see the danger. She wants me to trust her steps. I want her to slow down and wait for me so I can ensure her safety and ensure that her way is the right way.
The entire scenario reminded me of a lesson God gave me very recently. The sad thing is that I’m not a fast learner and I’m not apt to listen because I think my way works pretty well. So God had to give me the same lesson, over, and over, and over again. Even now, after I’ve finally started to listen, he had to solidify it through my child’s hurriedness to reach the church door, unguided.
Going too Fast and Doing too Much
The noise of the world and hustle and bustle of what I’m wanting to do get in the way of my relationship with God. He calls to me, “Slow down. Be still.”
But I’ve got too much to do to stop. I’m busy doing everything and doing it my own way. I’m saying, “Trust me! I know what I’m doing. It’s all important and good stuff.” I want to do it all. I don’t have time to stop.
Missing My Appointment
I’m sitting with a group of ladies having a little discussion about God’s desire for a relationship with us when one lady dropped the truth bomb in my lap:
We work hard NOT to miss job interviews or doctor’s appointments but our meetings with God get postponed so easily.
It felt my heart sink into my stomach.
I hadn’t listened when he told me to slow down. So here it was again. He was asking why I kept missing my appointment with him. Why hadn’t I stopped to seek Him?
But I’m pretty stubborn and I have a very full schedule…I didn’t know (and still struggle with it) what an appointment with God would even look like.
A Prayer Chair?
Ironically, a stress seminar for women was being put on by a local church and I decided I had to be there. It was just what I needed to help me manage everything I was trying to do.
God was there too.
Not only did the seminar cover the importance of having daily prayer time and a dedicated place for study and prayer, BUT we also were given a reminder of the story of Mary and Martha.
Martha was very busy doing the cooking and the cleaning. She was seeking to DO for Jesus while Mary sought to KNOW Jesus. God was giving me the same message again, in yet ANOTHER way. Stop doing, so you can start knowing.
Why am I so stubborn?
The One Who Made the Stars
Finally, one morning I went for a walk under the stars. The stars are a reminder that we serve a mighty God. He made each and every star and he knows them all by name. He knows each of us the same way. He also made those stars for a purpose just as he made us for a purpose. As I glanced at those stars that morning, I sensed God saying, “I’m still here. I’m waiting.”
That’s when it all sank in…God wanted me to be still and know that he’s in control and he has a plan and a purpose for me. The stars and scripture were all evidence of this. But my main purpose to is know him and to praise him. NOT to run from him in my stubbornness and disobedience.
Psalm 46:10 – Be Still and Know
“Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.” – Psalm 46:10
I have finally begun to seek God daily. I will admit. It has been awkward. Like a weird first date, where I’m the weird one. But I’m making an effort and much has been revealed through the process of it. As a result, God is teaching me and I’m hearing from him more frequently.
I’ve realized that I’m not alone. God does not wish for me to make my own path and he doesn’t wish for me to spin my wheels in vain.
God is calling out to us, “stop running and walk beside me.” He wants us to slow down and take his hand so he can guide our steps. But we have to learn how to hear his voice first.